Eating cheese and watching TV, I am feeling down and am not liking my life right now. The worst thing about that sentence is that there’s really no reason. I just get depressed at times and I never know why until I emerge on the other side.
Every time this happens I start feeling discontent with life, and start looking for a way out, not just for me but for the whole family. In my life, “a way out” means away from my job (which I usually love), away from Sweden (which is understandable considering the weather) and away from obligations. I just want to sit on a beach, with my family, having quality time.
Of course I always have a lot of excuses why this could never happen, the main ones being: a) money, b) school for the kids (I’ve mentioned before that I would love to homeschool my kids but that it is forbidden by law to do so in Sweden), and c) well, money again.
Those are my excuses and I don’t know how to get out of my own head. One step would be to actually talk to my husband about this dream and then look it up – if we wanted it, how could we make it happen? If someone out there is reading this who’ve done something like this – how did you go about it?
I don’t feel like I’m on the other side yet, and I’m not sure eating cheese and watching TV does the trick, but for now it’ll do.