I am now more than halfway through this month of playing the minsgame. I am starting to struggle a bit to find things to give away or recycle, but most of all I am thinking that this is not minimalism. Getting rid of things should not be my main focus anymore. I’ve done it for almost two years and I am starting to really like my home. I don’t get irritated looking around, I have what I need (and – still – then some), and that’s probably how it will be for as long as I have the kids living at home (which means at least another 15 years, I think).
No, what this experience is giving me is not more space to breathe, but more space to think about what should be next in my life. What can I do to truly add meaning to my life?
Because I won’t lie, my life sometimes feel pretty meaningless. Or perhaps I’m the one who is meaningless. I don’t feel grateful for what I have, and I (most definitely) think that I should. I have wonderful kids, I have a nice husband who I, most of the time, don’t think I deserve, I have friends and family and a home (and a boring job, but still, it’s a job)… Even as I’m writing this down, while acknowledging that I am an (empty and) ungrateful person, I still don’t know what is lacking and how to change it.
Any ideas, anyone?